Monday, October 4, 2010

Having finals tomorrow, YET
I'm still here.

the question is,
why I'm here?
neither do I know why, literally.

not knowing why I'm here blogging you this,
isn't that I'm suppose to EAT up the notes,
munching them into my tiny brain space?

YES.

9 chapters awaiting me to discover
and I just don't get the mood to study

being very typical in study matters,
I can't study when I don't have a mood/intention to
reason is simply easy, I can't memorize when my brain refuse to
weird eh?

geezzz...
I don't put a blame on you, dear brain
It's just that you'd plan the wrong thing for me to do
that's why instead of study
I ended up with don't-know-what-I've-been-doing
I've been studying whole day
but nothing loaded into it.

even MR.BE couldn't help much
I tried to focus, but failed
Blame my concentration,
Memories keep on flooding back, these days,
non-stop
I looked back and regret, I cling on with doubt, moving on with fears
memories left me with misery, indeed
but true enough to say
I'm trembling.
nothing could get out of these nonsense
two weeks more to have my finals finish
memories, PLEASE shuu away in the mean time
visit me when my finals are over,
one step at a time, get it?

ALRIGHT
will try to focus & concentrate

write to you soon
very soon.

P/S: I love you.
note to self: please treat him nicely. you dont deserve anything in the first place so learn to appreciate.
note to God: Dear God, please don't take back the good things in my life. because, thats what left for me till this far. Give me more or take away my memories and nightmare.